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[because it's raining all the time i guess to keep myself busy, i write this]

if you fall like the rain
i’ll stick out my tongue, as i always did when i was small
cheering for each drop
running around the place excited

if you fall like the rain
then i wont draw this big sun on the ground
and ask my pals to wish she comes
then rush to make our paper boats

if you fall like the rain
ill cherish each drop on my shoulder
feeling its you, though cold and blue
i keep walking with closed umbrella

if you fall like the rain
and im stuck at work
ill be crying deep inside
and when i get home, i’ll catch ur shadow on my window

so if you fall like the rain
you should know, that i
i will be on the side
singing, dancing as if you were mine.

The first time I saw you
you were standing in the rain
there was something about you
that made me look again
the way that you let the rain
fall down on you
the way that you smile
when your eyes met mine Ooh,ooh…

I’ll always remember I’ll never forget
how you took my breath away
the first time we met
no matter what happened
no matter what you do
i’ll always remember
the first time I saw you

Now we’re together
said you’d take me by surprise
little things that you say and do
so new to me each line
the way that you make me feel
reminds me of the very first time
when your eyes met mine

I’ll always remember I’ll never forget
how you took my breath away
the first time we met
no matter what happened
no matter what you do
i’ll always remember
the first time I saw you

I never knew Angels exist, until I saw you.

You remind me of the fantasies I’ve been thinking growing up. You realize the beauty created in my mind. You perform the qualities I’ve only dreamt of. You are the epitomy, the fulfillment of my dreams.

I may have met you, but you never know me. You might have seen me, but not thru me. Our eyes may have met somewhere in time, but it is the same time I want to stop every moment you’re around me.
Your voice, the voice which uttered my name… I’ve searched deep down my soul to hear it again. To construct your image in my mind gives me enough inspiration to turn may day to a shangrila. The shadow you left in my thoughts will ever haunt my soul. longing, begging, dreaming, that one day you’ll be in my arms.

I will not utter the words, i shall not speak. Let my actions show how much i treasure you. Though I’m fooling my self, I know, I believe, that day will come. When trees sheds it bark, when rivers recede, when the tide is high. We’ll be holding each others hand, walking to the horizon.

Now I pray, my dear Angel. God may have lost you, He might be looking, watching, waiting for me to give you back. But I’ll talk to Him, pray to Him, beg him for one last chance to be with you. Spend a little moment, a second that would last eternity.

A lot of people ask me what am i doin with my life.
sometimes it’s hard to answer, but to be simple, i’m just being happy.
i’m trying new things, things i have never done before, things i wish i could have done, but never got the chance to do. of course i don’t regret my past life, coz i look forward to what tomorrow brings. perhaps i living one day at a time.  browsing thru all your blogs and profile, i get to learn a lot. but one made me smile "doing my best in everything i do," you know who you are. well it reminds me of Don Bosco’s motto for his boys: do your ordinary duties, extra ordinarily well" i believe if we keep on doing this, at the end of each day, it will be so fulfilling.

if you’ve been to pizza hut, i guess you might have glimpsed on the golden bell with rope and tassel, I dare you ring that when ever you have the chance- just do it. it may be a very small thing to you, but it will mean a lot for the crew. after a single dong… you don’t know it but you just made their day! and a simple way of smiling to people, it takes very less effort, but it will really make their day!

ok now, back to what i’m up to… hehehe

(will get back to it soon!)

Let the pain remain forever in my heart
for every throb it brings is one more moment spent with you
I’ll let the pain, bring out the rain
if that’s the only way, if there’s no other way
to be with you again…

I would like to greet you all Merry Christmas and a Grace
Filled New Year.

It was not long since we started teaching you futbol; I bet
we had bad times.
I know all the problems in our club, but we managed to go thru them (at least
for some).

This year is gonna be big. After all the trainings, the pains, the long
sermons, we can now say that we are ready to expand. As I’ve always mentioned,
I dream of bringing back DB Canlubang to the GLORY DAYS, and it’s not beyond
our reach.

Last night I got this text message which really struck me, allow me to share it
with you:

IF YOU WANT TO HAVE WHAT
YOU’VE NEVER HAD
YOU MUST DO, WHAT YOU’VE NEVER DONE.
CAUSE, IF YOU ONLY DO WHAT YOU’VE ALWAYS BEEN DOING
YOU WILL ONLY HAVE WHAT YOU’VE ALWAYS BEEN HAVING.

This message really gave me a good wakeup call. As I think about it, I believe
it has a message for all of us. To achieve more, let us do more. Sacrifice
more, and give up more.
2006 was really a great year. I met new friends (hey hey hey), learned new
things (specially on futbol), & achieved a lot as a team. I intend not to
stop, instead, I look forward on growing more, until we reach the point that we
become the best. Stop grinning, ALL GREAT THINGS START FROM A DREAM!

With that I leave you.

Let us dream big, aim for the STARS. The year 2007 has a lot
to offer, let’s grab all opportunities, and see failures as foundations to a
great tomorrow.

Again, Happy Christmas and have a Grace filled New Year!

With prayers,

Ake Pastoral 

Finally after 4 years, here comes the most awaited for all of us footballers– the world cup!
Hmmm and for all my friends, kailangan paba nating imemorize yan, syempre BRASIL parin tayo ok?!
I’m waiting for the 6th star, GO GO GO, OLE OLE OLE!!!
Japan lost to AUS, but KOREA did well v TOGO, nice Asian brothers, hmmm kelan kaya ang Pinas, sana buhay pa kaming mga adik sa futbol when we finally enter the World Cup.
OLE OLE OLE!
GO GO GO Brasil!

and now I start with the thing i love most– FUTBOL!!!
Ole ole ole! The world cup is around, and needless to say, BRASIL will bring home the gold again, ole ole!
though i only started playing Futbol in my 2nd year high, i believed it was the game for me. eversince i stepped
in the pitch, i decreased my playing time for basketball. if i had the chance to play futbol i’d do it. there are times when i would
ask my classmates to swap game schedule with me, hehehe.
And ofcourse, how can I forget, my mentor–Don Elu! mabuti nalang you forced me to play soccer, and also
Rene Espiritu who told me, "mag futbol ka kung gusto mo ng challenge", and that was it.
i really love the game, halos adik na talaga ako, na kahit baha ang field o bumabagyo, I still play futbol.
with all respect to other sports, kakaiba talaga ang futbol cause there are no situations where you find yourself
in deja vou, (tama ba) anyway it is a game that encourages each player to think, and act as fast as possible, like
the heart beat, it never stops, and that’s what i love about futbol. every game is a new situation, a new challege.
In pampanga, we were not that exposed to outside games. very limited yung mga chances that we play in leagues
outside, sus bakit kasi seminaryo eh, hahaha. same thing when i went to CEBU, though the futbol environment became
more challenging, still i’m locked up, grrrrrr. and now I’m paying for it– adik parin hanggang ngayon, uhaw sa liga
at exposure. Sus pano ka naman gagaling kung puro ka teammate mo at schoolmate mo ang kalaban, no sweat! haha
but the thing is, i believe, given the chance and exposure, i could have done more. and so, to all my apprentice,
be very patient, and stick with me (master jedi) i’ll feed you all the exposure available basta share tayo sa fees, hehehe.
Just paying it FORWARD!!! but in a better way syempre.
Got to sleep now. more on futbol to come!

I only stayed in DBJ until 1995. I guess I have no choice since the school was ruined by the Lahar flow. Anyway 3 years is enough, I learned a lot, I became better. In my last few months of stay, we were experiencing a great deal of floods. If I remember it right, there were months when we only have 15 days of complete classes, due to the lahar threat our school has no choice but to cancel class. Ofcourse as a student I was really happy to have no class, sino ba naman ang gustong pumasok diba? Well I guess having no school days is also good but eventually I got fed up and hoped that we’re sent to our classrooms, cause in exchange for the long vacation is WORK.

In the seminary, we call it work because we do manual work. As in we are the janitor of our compound. Again getting used to the no class schedule is tiring. Just think of it, I’m there to learn but all I do is clean up? Not to mention our friendly guest, the ITAS (indegenous people from Zambales mountains or somewhere), well they stayed in our gymnasium, and it pretty much changed the smell of the environment. The sad thing is they don’t use the CRs, that’s a big problem
Then again I’m happy I had those experiences. Life was so simple, contentment was just a mouthfull of cropek and balitog. Ofcourse who would forget the CESAR refilling station near the Chapel. Who would think that Cesar who is very generous to Aspirants like me would give free refill to my coke from the dispenser…. oooppss, there goes the secret.

I have much to share, but little time to write them. I’ll slowly jot things down so you’ll pretty much know what type of person I am.
Thanks for reading

It’s not until I met YOU when I realize that life can be so complicated. Coming from another world, a world secluded, a world where I see perfection, YOU woke me up.  And what’s most beautiful about all of it, it’s just YOU.
Half a decade of being together, half a decade of tears, half a decade of hopes, half a decade… it’s just so long. Sadly it’s just now that I’m looking back. Smiling, crying, feeling pain. Sad, yes i know it’s sad. WHAT IF? What if you never came, what if you never talked, what if you never called me, what if? WHO will I be now?
Endless chains of memries keep flashing. Tormenting me, slowly degrading me. YOU, your memory, it soothes me, freshens me up, making me feel as if I’m in a Ferrari, driving to my delight. But then slowly, I feel the pain, the danger, the risk. And I hold back, step on the brake, and finally WALK OUT.
This is not my life, this is not what i want for myself. The life given to me, I have to PAY back. I have to share.